Tuesday, 26 April 2011

Gone Too Soon

Yesterday the world lost a beautiful girl.

Since I found out last night I've been thinking what I could say and right now I'm still lost for words. You only need to glance at her Facebook page and see how distraught all her friends, and those who's lives she touched are.
Jenny McKay was a girl who was in my year at high school and although I only spoke to her years ago when we were all in first year at Park Mains, her sudden death has shocked me just the same as everyone else.

But it really has got me thinking how precious life is. How easy it is to bring someone into this world and even more so, how quickly those lives can end. I hear of people dying of CF and other illnesses far too often. When I do it always gets me thinking like this. But as upsetting and shocking it can be to hear of another young person losing their life to CF, it really hits home when it's someone like Jenna who never had a chronic lung disease or was waiting for a transplant to extend her life expectancy. She was a fit and healthy girl with her whole life ahead of her. With so much more to experience, people to meet, memories to make.

I'm always trying to make the most of now just in case tomorrow doesn't come and get others to do the same.
Smile when you're feeling down and laugh when you feel like crying.
Say yes to meeting someone new you wouldn't normally make friends with.
Try something you've never thought of doing before.
And make sure everyone you love and care for knows it!

There's nothing I can say to everyone that's not already been said or even soften the blow the loss has caused but there's no harm in trying. My thoughts are with all of Jennas' family, friends, and anyone who was blessed with knowing such a genuinely beautiful girl. 


Thursday, 21 April 2011


Just thought I'd share some lyrics from my favorite band Alexisonfire. Most of you will probably never even have heard of them or if you have, you'd definitely not like them aha :P 
But I think the lyrics to the song 'Accidents' means something to me. Or anyone with an illness really.

love love love them <3 I've seen them live 4 times already and I honestly never get sick of their music!

I'm not sure what's worse
The waiting or the waiting room
"You're next sir" becomes a cruel taunt to you
Recycled air, the smell of sleep and disinfectant
Your God is a two door elevator

Do they even cure you? (Cut me open drug me)
Or is it just to humor us before we die (Repair all my defects) 
If only we could heal ourselves (Whoa whoa whoa...)
We wouldn't need to be hooked up to these machines (Whoa whoa whoa...)

Whoa whoa whoa...

Let's redefine [6x]
What it means to heal

Do they even cure you? (Cut me open drug me)
Or is it just to humor us before we die (Repair all my defects)
If only we could heal ourselves (Whoa whoa whoa...)
We wouldn't need to be hooked up to these machines (Whoa whoa whoa...)

Whoa whoa whoa...

Tuesday, 19 April 2011

Big News!

Right so I've finally got around to doing this blog. I was waiting till everything had been finalised and I knew it was definitely going ahead before I started opening my big mouth and getting myself excited. Which means I can now get excited and tell you all.

What's the big news you ask?.....
.....Well I'm moving out of the mummys house and into my own flat with Rab!! :D Eeee!

First time I've moved away from home so it's a pretty big thing for me. And also with me being at this tough bit in my life waiting for my transplant has made it more difficult than it would any other 19 year old girl. But the lease has been signed, all the paperwork dealt with and we've to pick up the keys on the 8th of May - which is less than 3 weeks away now! Exciting stuff!

It's up in Barrhead and I've got everything so organised to the point where it's possibly even a wee bit obsessive aha. We've even already chosen the colour schemes and what we wanna buy (I've already started getting bits and pieces as I go along). Well.... when I say 'we', I don't actually think I've given Rab much choice when it comes to decor/furnishings/colours... Poor lad! He's just smiled and agreed with all of this! The bossy Lou is in full swing :P

So I'm not sure there's much else to say really. I'll keep you all updated as best I can, but to be perfectly honest I'll probably be pretty busy over the next month or so. I will however, take photos as I go along and upload them for you's to have a wee peek at Lou and Rabs new pad!

Much love :) xx 

Friday, 15 April 2011

A year older

Well I would have been on to update this earlier but I've been busy busy busy! It was my 19th birthday last thursday. Seriously can't believe a year's passed that quickly already! So much has happened, changed, I've grown up, met new folk, drifted away from a few. But the main thing is I'm still here. That might sound a wee bit morbid but a year is a pretty long time when it comes down to illness and needing a transplant. I'm still battling away but I actually feel like I'm coping (physically and mentally) a million times better than I was this time last year.
I mean, obviously my actual lung function isn't any better cause they cant heal themselves (although it would be pretty bloody nifty if they could!) but I can do so much more than I could when I first got put on o2. I can walk further, stay awake through the day like a normal person, get out more, enjoy myself on nights out if I have a drink and generally have so much more energy. So I'm guessing its all down to being on my NIV overnight, working up my fitness levels and building up leg muscle (no longer have wee chicken legs! got myself some meaty looking pins here). Oh and obviously just sticking with all my meds and physio, but that goes without saying doesn't it.

So as I was saying in my last blog that I had plans to go away to Edinburger for a couple of nights with my knight on shining wheels :D
Well it was pretty amazing. I wasn't actually feeling too great but I was determined not to cancel so I dragged my wee bum up there. It was so worth it though. Didn't really venture out much further than the hotel room actually and we only left the hotel on the first night to go for dinner in a wee italian bistro just up the road (where I managed to embarrass myself within like 10 minutes of sitting down by accidently launching my knife across the table... only I could manage these things!), then to a wee pub for a couple of drinks before heading back upto the room to get fired into a nice big bottle of pink champagne. Mmmm! The rest of our wee trip was spent lazing about in our big queen size bed, ordering meals on room service and looking out the huge floor-to-ceiling window over the grassmarket and up at Edinburgh castle. Rab totally spoilt me! He made a potentially dull 2 days in a posh hotel room special :)

Unfortunately I ended up back in hotel Garters the morning after we got home but I'm feeling loads better already so I'm at home finishing my IV's. Absolutely no complains! Lou is content :)

Thought I'd add some photos on here of our wee trip for those who haven't seen them. The rest are on my Facebook.
And I'll leave you all with these. Much love x

View from our window

The room. Not sure why they gave us 2 queen size beds right enough!

View at night :) so pretty. The moon looked really cool too

Me and the boy

Room service! This was my birthday dinner. Was actually so yummy